Keeping My Beating Heart Open © EGranholm

Keeping My Beating Heart Open

2.14.2013

© EGranholm

Verse 1:

I always seem to ask…

At what point did I go wrong?

When did I realize,

When did it dawn??

That we were never on the same page

Not even hearing the same love song?

Cause right now I always seem to crumble,

Totally melt and rapidly fall

Question my existence

Though, I know, I’d given my all…

Still, I’ll pour my soul

Black and dusty as old coal

Wondering if this half of me could be whole, someday?.......

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How could you leave me?

Just needed to be free…

We always argued to disagree

Didn’t want and couldn’t see…

You and me, weren’t a guarantee

Couldn’t make you happy…

       I’ll try not to let this bitter heart close.

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Verse 2:

The times I imagine things inside-out

Let out a crazy scream or discerning shout

Frantically searching for the answer

Life just continues to throw me about.

Eventually know I’m okay without….

                                        YOU….

But still sometimes jumbled thoughts quickly compound

Wretched fingers wrapped so tightly around

Asphyxiating anxiety, shoved to the ground

          But still searching for the words, to say…

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Stay with me…

Don’t leave me be.

I always seemed to disagree

All I saw was you and me… My eternity

Growing old by the sea...

I’m angry, So fucking angry!

Reflecting on the memories

       I can’t let this bitter heart close…

            I can’t..

I won’t

I won’t let this bitter heart close…

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Verse 3:

I’m an antelope who’s strayed from the herd.

A dream deferred.

A torn-winged bird,

Crooning a melody, still unheard

So melancholic with the tragedy incurred 

I know I loved with no reserve…

       Even though everything still fell apart.

I’m learning how to say adieu,

Let go of the days where I felt so blue

My tears will dry like the morning dew

Words from your mouth won’t seem so untrue.

And I’m able to find love again…..

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I don’t need you to stay with me…

You can leave, you can be free!

I’m casting my line out to sea

Knowing from a new seed, grows a new tree.

Onto a new start, both you and me.

Someday for my pod, I’ll find another pea

      Happy loving, living and being ME!

                       And I didn’t let this bitter heart close.

Didn’t close.whoaaaa…

Wouldn’t let it. Couldn’t let it.

Didn’t close…

Didn’t close, didn’t close cause I chose…

Cause I chose.

Cause I chose to keep my beating heart open.

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