My best friend is getting married tomorrow, and I am absolutely thrilled for her. I'm not sure how she's feeling. Maybe excited, nervous, anxious, happy, a little apprehensive... I can't imagine the thoughts in her pretty little head tomorrow.
I've known katie since we were in college and she used to wear those baggy overalls with a sportsbra and I suppose I had a teeny crush on her. (maybe...She is cute as a button after all... petite, skinny, pretty.) I always wanted to be tiny. Maybe I wonder if I wanted to be her? We lost touch until we were reunited and started sylized movement together.
Its weird because I get married in 55 days or something and as I lay beside john, I smile to myself because I'm happy, I only hope I make him as happy as he makes me... I feel all of those feelings above and more. I'm looking forward to experiencing life with him. We've already bought our first house together and have been living together for 2 years so at least that won't be an adjustment. But I imagine myself carrying his child, growing and glowing with this innocent life within my belly. I'm terrifyed of it, and yet it thrills me and I yearn for it... a few more years though.
John pulls me out of this box I like to live in and challenges me.
I am learning to live for that challenge. Life is good.
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