it's hard sometimes...

steamy secret

I dreamt away a seductive secret

One so rich and creamy,

Never thought I’d keep it.

So warm it’s steaming up and swirling around

My brown mug as I make my way to a far far away town.

The heat in clouds, visible against the crisp damp morning,

That has me twirling, twisting, and curling

My toes with anticipated excitement…

Pinterest and Social Media

I'd been holding out for a couple of weeks, but finally started a pinterest board. http://pinterest.com/emilycudmore/ Check it out. It's actually kinda cool. You create these virtual inspiration boards and upload and "pin up" things that peak your interest, inspire you, motivate you, make you laugh, thing, discover, etc. etc...
I created a couple of boards.
The concept is actually quite clever if you think about it. Social media as a venue for sharing yourself and how you want people to view you. I feel many people are searching to be understood and accepted the way they are and it's easy to expose certain sides of yourself via the internet. That's why things like initially myspace and facebook took off. Plus it was a way to connect with all these people. Facebook started off a little different as the college connection social media board and you only connected to people in college. I'm trying to remember when that changed and it opened to everyone and now there are all types of Networks that you can be associated with through it. I never deleted my myspace account, however I haven't logged onto it in over 2 years.
Now there are new waves and sites utilizing the social media platforms. Things like twitter Stylized Movement's Twitter and My Personal Twitter , and linked in, google +, pinterest. Facebook is constantly changing it's face, (ironically enough) and recently went public... so we'll have to see how things change more over the next few weeks.

afternoon reflections

 

Sitting in the foyer
Sunlight kissing my cheeks
As the tears fall away
Time to stop regretting
But I’m always forgetting…
To just Live
However, they say what is, IS
But what if it’s HIS attention I’m craving?
Not sure I’m worth saving?
And If I should be stealing all of his time…
 

 

My mind has always been a little bit crazy 

And my habits are at times, quite lazy
With thoughts dribbling out all tired and hazy
 

But I am who I am…
Nothing less, nothing more.
And as the waves continue to lap the shore
I will continue to adore, (even as you snore).
Love you as you are.
Both normal and bizarre
And together, we’ll gather stars
With the glow of the moon behind us….

Finding Our Happiness

I dream of a simpler time
When things are as they seem
And truths don’t seem misleading
Where when I lie next to you lengthwise on the mattress
With our limbs woven into a web of defeat
And we sink into the sheets
Falling away into bliss
Cause I’m yours and you’re mine
All the time...
And together we’ve found our happiness…

Laryngitis and Continual Learning

So I finished my zpac and the prednazone they put me on for the pneumonia, and I feel fine. Fever is fully gone. Only thing left is this terrible absent, squeek of a voice I have. I finally stopped into CVS minute clinic one morning before work and had them take a look at my throat. He said it looks fine, but it's hoarse and strained because my larynx is swollen and I have laryngitis. He also told me that the only way it heals is to not talk much. For those of you who know me... I have a hard time shutting up. Plus, in the line of work I'm in, I'm often on the phone or answering questions, or explaining processes to new employees and getting them set up. So it is HARD to just SHUT UP. Man oh man.
So I've been trying. Texting more than calling. Emailing more than talking. But I'm still not quiet all the time. Also it was awesome when one of my employees straight up asked me if when I talk on the phone if anyone has asked if I was a man. I was like Gee, thanks... no, noones said that to me, but thanks for making me feel more self-conscious about it.
Other than that, life just continues on. Never slows down, but that's my own fault. A friend was telling me I just need to chill out and let things happen. I stress about things I can not control too much. But sometimes it's hard to just step back and say, okay I can't do anything about this, so I'm not going to worry about it. Haven't learned how to really do that yet, but I'm working on it. Life is a continual growing process and I still feel like I'm learning new things each day. Which feels good. I feel like I'm at an okay spot in my life where things just are and I can see where there headed to a certain degree. Job-wise I feel like I made a pretty good decision with human resources. I really like working with employees, payroll, all the benefits, and I feel like I'm the go-to person in a lot of cases. It feels good contributing in a way that I see effects the whole company. Hiring, especially all the international stuff has been great and an eye opener to just how different cultures can be. I'm also enjoying being in school and the things that I learn there and how they apply to every day work situations and businesses. Speaking of which, I took a break from my finance homework to blog, and I really should get back to it. So until next time. Peace.

Sickly Sickerton

So, I admit, as much as I'd like to post every day, I often don't. I think about posting things and what flutters through my mind, but when the time comes and I actually get around to it, I'm not in the mood anymore or something.
So far 2012 has been a blur. I can't believe we are almost through January.
This past week was kinda messy for me in that I got the flu that turned into a chest cold, which then turned into Pneumonia and Bronchitis and I finally went to the ER Sunday night. I had a fever starting last Wednesday 1/18 of almost 102 degrees and I thought it broke Saturday night, but by Sunday night I was wheezing and asked John to take me to the hospital. While I was there wasting my precious Sunday night before the work week started, they listened to my chest and lungs and gave me 2 breathing treatments. They gave me antibiotics and steroids, which have in turn given me high sugars this week.
I try to be as healthy as possible, but sometimes it's a challenge that's frusterating... especially when I seem to get so sickly, so easily.

oh well. C'est le vie..