Do you ever feel like your talking and wishing you could shut up, but the words just tumble so freely from your mouth and it’s like for a second you feel better cause you can’t keep the nonsense bottled up inside? I have. I’ve been honest. Brutally honest. To the point of where I think some of my close friends would even label me a “Bitch”. I think there’s a part of me that wants everyone to like me, but I feel like so many people just are their own worst enemy and will be in denial about everything so it’s good to call them out.
John calls this issue, “verbal diarrhea”… I hate it when he calls it that, but it’s true. I’ve had some people say I’m mean even. Never do I ever want to be mean about anything or hurt anyone, but I don’t like hiding from the truth and I am just blunt about a lot of things. You could say I’m not good at censoring myself. But I never want to hurt them with my words… just get them to see what I can see in them. I feel like many sell themselves short. I even do it sometimes. But I try hard not to. I try to remember what I am capable of, and the strides that have taken me here. I can’t resent others for putting their focus on things that don’t benefit themselves or the world around them. That is their choice. Different people prioritize things very differently. It’s just weird how we’re all so different, but we’re really all the same. The main thing that I have been letting slosh around in my thoughts is balance. Work balance, fun balance, love balance, everything needs to be balanced…. The key to life and happiness is just this… and I think it’s something that I will continue needing to work on.
