looking from another level

I found you in a field. The grass was long and waving as the winds blew across it...Glare of the sun in my eyes but I could see you motioning with your arm to come to you. I ran towards you but it never felt like I was getting closer. suddenly you seemed about 50 yards away and you took off running to the treeline...

I caught up with you, we made it to the forest. Both of us sprinting so fast it was like in those movies where it’s super speed. Straight ahead there was like this giant redwood. Massive. Like in the northern forests of California. I remember feeling the bark of the tree, the pattern seemed extraordinarily intricate and I traced with my finger, feeling the toughness of the bark. Watching small pieces of it flake away. 

You told me we have to climb the tree. It will help us see... I just nodded and followed. It seemed easier than I expected it to be. Looking up I saw you above me, mixed with the sparkling light as it flickered through the tree branches. At the very top, once me made it through the canopy we could see everything. The sun felt warm. The breeze was soft, the way it was when we were in the shade on Saturday.

I talked about wolves I thought were chasing me. How they frightened me, especially when I could see their fangs. You told me I didn’t need to worry about them they were below us and couldn’t climb trees. Told me how absurd it was to feel frightened by them. I smiled when I caught your eyes. They were such a soft brown, which seemed in contrast to the intensity that I felt them piercing back into mine. Shaded under your strong brow and squinting a bit while you smiled back. 

Life was elevated. I just needed to look at it from another level.

I woke at 5:49am with a smile. Peaked at my phone and saw you already sent me a good morning message. Today will be a great day. 🌾

finding happiness - a dream inside a dream

some nights I'm haunted even in my dreams... constantly searching for my happiness.

I couldn't find you anywhere. I'm walking through the woods, listening to the acorns and leaves crunch beneath my feet. Suddenly the trees part and open up to this enormous golden field that stretches for eternity. The grass is waist high, soft and dry with the wind blowing so it looks like rippling waves across the field. The sun is so bright I'm forced to squint and it's like I'm wandering around blindly. But I see you faintly in the distance, by the one giant willow tree that's around. It's branches long and leaning towards the earth.
I run. I run absolutely as fast as I can. I'm scared your going to disappear. Terrified. As fast as I run, it almost doesn't seem like you're getting any closer. 

But finally I make it to you. Fling myself into your arms and kiss you. I've needed those kisses so badly... and I'm telling you I've missed you so much and you're all I've ever needed.