Complicated Contemplations on a Warm Summer Evening

Complicated Contemplations on a Warm Summer Evening

Amber-tinted and rose-colored lenses

Painting the world with warm waves of summer

Hiding those eyes from the glare of the sun

Before the clouds roll over, bringing dusk

And cooler air.

The breezes blow gently

Carrying the sweet smell of summer

While the sky glazes over, and melts with my body into the sand.

I’m digging a hole with my heel ,

Dragging my fingers in circular patterns.

Wondering if the worlds so large, where’s my place in it?

And so my thoughts are bouncing with complications compounding

My life’s abounding, like a symphony of sounds

Harmonic and soft,

Blending, merging, combining into a

Single, solitary, one of a kind creation

Just subtle enough to fit in.

Transference of Energy

Energy travels cyclically 

I've always believed in the transfer of energy. I believe that energy is passed from person to person, and that it lingers in objects and things, waiting for something else to transport it into new directions. It's like karma, and how if your positive and think positively, good things will come to you, and if your negative all the time, you end up seeming to focus on only the bad in your life, and it seems like everyone's out to get you. This is of course, not always the case, however it is typical.

When you surround yourself with enthusiastic, hardworking, positive people you can usually feel the passion and drive from them... feeding off their energy. You know how they say, "You are who you surround yourself with." It's 100% true. Do what you love and love what you do, and all that is good, will come to you. Lol. Just came up with that little phrase. ;) But I try to focus on what's positive about a situation and a person and work from that. Grow the goodness and focus on what you do have. I was watching Chelsey Lately last night and she had Tyler Perry on her show. He was discussing his new movie, Good Deeds and how there was a homeless woman once that really made an impact on him. They brought her in off the street and all she wanted was a place to sleep and some shoes on her feet. Never asked for any money... and he was saying how some of us don't even think of how blessed we are to have shoes to protect the soles of our feet. It just made me stop and think for a minute. Just reflect on how blessed I really am. I have love, great friends, amazing family, a smart head on my shoulders, and clothes on my back, an awesome job, my own dance company, a little home (that I can call my own) over my head, a vehicle, food in my belly, and money left over to save and plan and enjoy life a little more. I could go on and on... but I am incredibly lucky, and I try to remember that... however, I also work VERY hard, so I get frustrated sometimes when it seems like people sell themselves short.  When I visited my dad recently, he told me to remember to focus on my needs too, and not to always burn the candle at both ends so that I don't necessarily resent others when I feel that their choices are lazy and easy. I work very hard and I need to remember that that is my choice. I just don't want to waste my life, and I've noticed I base my worth and existence on my accomplishments. That may be a good thing or a bad thing, but regardless its a feeling that I have that makes me constantly want to reach for more. Achieve more. Grow. Learn. Develop.
When you do good things and focus on what's positive the bad seems to drift away. So go ahead, hold tight to those dreams, smile more, perform a random act of kindness and pass on the positivity. I'm sending good vibes and energy your way right now.... Hope you can feel it and you have a great day!

Til the next time.
-E

it's hard sometimes...

steamy secret

I dreamt away a seductive secret

One so rich and creamy,

Never thought I’d keep it.

So warm it’s steaming up and swirling around

My brown mug as I make my way to a far far away town.

The heat in clouds, visible against the crisp damp morning,

That has me twirling, twisting, and curling

My toes with anticipated excitement…

Pinterest and Social Media

I'd been holding out for a couple of weeks, but finally started a pinterest board. http://pinterest.com/emilycudmore/ Check it out. It's actually kinda cool. You create these virtual inspiration boards and upload and "pin up" things that peak your interest, inspire you, motivate you, make you laugh, thing, discover, etc. etc...
I created a couple of boards.
The concept is actually quite clever if you think about it. Social media as a venue for sharing yourself and how you want people to view you. I feel many people are searching to be understood and accepted the way they are and it's easy to expose certain sides of yourself via the internet. That's why things like initially myspace and facebook took off. Plus it was a way to connect with all these people. Facebook started off a little different as the college connection social media board and you only connected to people in college. I'm trying to remember when that changed and it opened to everyone and now there are all types of Networks that you can be associated with through it. I never deleted my myspace account, however I haven't logged onto it in over 2 years.
Now there are new waves and sites utilizing the social media platforms. Things like twitter Stylized Movement's Twitter and My Personal Twitter , and linked in, google +, pinterest. Facebook is constantly changing it's face, (ironically enough) and recently went public... so we'll have to see how things change more over the next few weeks.

afternoon reflections

 

Sitting in the foyer
Sunlight kissing my cheeks
As the tears fall away
Time to stop regretting
But I’m always forgetting…
To just Live
However, they say what is, IS
But what if it’s HIS attention I’m craving?
Not sure I’m worth saving?
And If I should be stealing all of his time…
 

 

My mind has always been a little bit crazy 

And my habits are at times, quite lazy
With thoughts dribbling out all tired and hazy
 

But I am who I am…
Nothing less, nothing more.
And as the waves continue to lap the shore
I will continue to adore, (even as you snore).
Love you as you are.
Both normal and bizarre
And together, we’ll gather stars
With the glow of the moon behind us….

Finding Our Happiness

I dream of a simpler time
When things are as they seem
And truths don’t seem misleading
Where when I lie next to you lengthwise on the mattress
With our limbs woven into a web of defeat
And we sink into the sheets
Falling away into bliss
Cause I’m yours and you’re mine
All the time...
And together we’ve found our happiness…